“I would be silent now, Lord, and expectant… that I may receive the gift I need so that I may become the gift others need.” — Ted Loder, Guerillas of Grace.
With one or two exceptions, it’s been a long time since I’ve posted here. A lot has been happening. My mother has suffered through an illness so severe that for many weeks we feared for her life, and her recovery – for which we are all grateful! — is coming one tiny step at a time. It started just before Thanksgiving, and Christmas came limping into our lives with the crisis unresolved. Yet by Christmas night we were able to gather our tiny family together by the 7-foot tree, exchange presents, laugh and hug, and enjoy each other – such a strong consolation after so many weeks of distress! After the holidays, I suddenly realized that for the previous two or three months I’ve had an inner ear infection, and now I’m on a course of antibiotics that are so strong I feel worse taking them rather than better. No matter; I’ll soon be well again. But all of this has taken its toll on my attention to this blog, and I’ve dropped pretty much off the radar of all my friends’ lives.
So I’m retiring this activity as well as my website, at least for a while, as I consider where to go from here. Life is very malleable right now and I’m “hanging loose” to whatever comes.
I’ve thought of this blog as one person’s attempt to pay attention to the Spirit of God in the midst of life. I’ll still be doing that, but in a more private way, at least for a while.
Each time I’ve written a post it has felt as if I’m connecting in some way with you (even though I don’t know who you are). I’ve been grateful and hopeful that someone was finding something worth reading. But I’m no longer sure I have anything valuable to say just now, and that’s usually a good reason to stop talking. Silence is also an important spiritual practice.
If you’ve been following me in some way, thank you! I’m leaving the blog site open for a while, but “unmanned.” Whether I return to it or not, I hope the days ahead will find you well and thriving, living deeply, discovering your joy in the Holy One. Blessings to you!